cuddlefeyrac:

au where gatsby and nick get married and gatsby’s vows are all addressed to old sport and when the preacher asks if he takes nicholas carraway to be his lawfully wedded husband, gatsby just stands there in confusion for a few minutes and eventually confesses that he has no idea who nicholas carraway is he’s here to marry old sport

… ASH

semiramis-audron:

candyexorcist:

Nobody has to believe me, but I’m sorry I’m such a pathetic excuse for a person.

Caaaandyyyyyyyyyyyy…..
You’re not a pathetic excuse for a person.
You’re a person.
Who needs attention and care.
And who gets emotionally attached to silly things like roleplay.
Like most of us.
Who doesn’t always find to most polite words and sometimes speaks in the heat of the moment.
Like most of us.
You have quite a little ego, like most of us.
But that’s okay!
You’re not more or less a derp than the rest of us.
And whenever you bother someone. You do it by accident.
As long as you don’t actively intend to harm someone, you are still doing fine.

 I did some pretty despicable things recently, including bitching out several people I consider friends just because I was frustrated; it doesn’t matter what the circumstances were, that’s just not cool. And it makes a bad impression of me, no matter that I didn’t know what I was doing.

Thank you for the generous words, but I still feel like I have a while to go before I have the kind of self-discipline that I want and need for dealing with many different people with many different needs, views and personalities. Till then I won’t be taking an active presence on Tumblr, because if I can let stress drive me to do things that reflect badly on me then it’s just better that I don’t do things.

Nobody has to believe me, but I’m sorry I’m such a pathetic excuse for a person.

Final note before I leave: my roleplay-chat blog is now under password-protect.

If you would like access to it, please fanmail/ask me

ineffableconstellations:

I finished good omens and I’m in a existential crisis because I don’t know what to do with my life

You could come holla at me, because I’m always open to those suffering from PGOS (Post-Good Omens Syndrome). :)

ok. Here’s the deal.

I have a tendency to get obsessive. When things don’t go well, I also have a tendency to get obsessive (and overwrought) about that. Sometimes it leaks out into hyperbole, and I don’t think I always understand how it comes across because I’ll be too upset at the time.

It’s a horrible habit that has only developed recently, and I know I need to remember that it upsets other people as well as me. I don’t mean to push people into feeling sorry for me. I’m not a bullying kind of person because I know what it is to be bullied and don’t intend that, but I do get frightened easily; I do tend to grab onto things that I think can keep me from being frightened, and now it’s obviously time for me to learn not to grab so hastily and roughly before I make yet more people angry at me.

To-do list:

1. stay away from Tumblr until I can talk to people without getting myself worked up or bothering them

… that’s pretty much it.

Sorry to all my new followers. I’m going through a stressful time right now, but it’s nothing to worry about.

veryslightlymad:

To be 100% honest, “~some people~” included me. I’ve done it a few times. I just didn’t exactly want to say it outloud. so. there’s that.

Me too.

meltingpenguins said: I hope my two cents didn't make it worse than it is

I think you did well in that you admitted your own tendency to get overwrought. If anyone should know about getting stuck in shitty mind spaces, it’s you.

I also think you’re right that everyone especially me) needs to step away from the argument for a while and wait for the emotions to stop running our mouths. I don’t honestly think anyone means to hurt anyone, and I do think that it can be resolved. Just not immediately.

Posting so I don’t have to make a separate post about it.

oldmanrupee said: Ok. I'm sorry I'm kinda bad at words and advice and stuff but I just wanted to make clear that I love being friends with you and I will stand by you no matter what. :p

Thanks. :) I’m probably not a good person to be friends with, though, considering how many arguments I seem to get myself in.

karpfeneis said: What I'm reading on your blog today makes me glad I hightailed out of that fandom when the time was right. If you ever need me, I'm there to talk to, but I won't be taking sides.

The fandom’s not bad. It’s just that some of the people have a tendency to jump to conclusions and impose their own preconceived notions of other people on what they see.

Also, thank you for not “taking sides”. I’ve tried to make myself more open to both sides of an argument, but I guess I’m just not good at that.